CAMP SAWI

CAMP SAWI

I’ve seen this movie sometime in 2016 when I was on vacation in the Philippines, and recently while taking advantage of my high-speed internet, lol, I watched it again.

The usual plot actually, simple story about love, loss and moving on, but there is something unique about this movie that I love.

Although I’m not broken-hearted when I first see the movie, and even when I watched it the second time around, I just love how the characters portray their respective roles with so much compassion.

I love the character of Bela, who’s Bridgette in the movie. Oh well, I never see Bela as good as being Bridgette.

At the beginning of the movie where you would see her really crying out loud in pain because her Chinese boyfriend of ten years dumped her for someone of his race because they were not allowed to marry someone from different nationality as part of their tradition.

You would actually feel her inner sadness and deep heartache as she was still trying to communicate with her ex-bf,  calling him several times and when he answered, trying to open up a conversation even for a few minutes, trying to bring back their memories, hoping to have a second chance -> I guess, asking why is he not responding to  all her calls and text messages, begging for little time to meet him in person even for 5 minutes just to see him, and  patiently waiting for him to come but he didn’t, all the rejections and disappointment, crying and crying all over again….

 

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I felt her pain. I felt her rejections. I felt how it was like to be ignored just like that without reasons or at least a little explanation to make you feel better.

I felt how she was still trying to get in touch with the person, to be with him again even how much pain he caused her. Ouch!!!

Before the end of the film where she was seen meeting with the guy and the only thing she managed to ask him is “How are you? I just want to know if you are okay….” and left.

Oh well, you know, sometimes Life sucks for no apparent reason at all…and worse, you will be left with no other option but to force yourself to move on.

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DELUSIONAL

DELUSIONAL

The sad fact that you don’t wanna admit to yourself that you became delusional from the idea you once created on your mind based from hearsays and past stories, and you started living in that illusion hoping the same affection would happen to you.

When in reality, it was just someone from the past, a stranger, someone that is not real, but just an image, a mental creation, a person that was no longer existing or never existed at all…just a dream.

When life really hits you…very hard.

But can’t blame anyone, to be honest, you have to know where you stand coz you may not know it, you might be standing in a wrong position. That’s where the drama starts.

And all these hopes are actually just part of being delusional.

Different life, different stories, different approach, different treatment, and someone like me who’s only there to watch it.

Sometimes the truth hurts so we lie to ourselves.

A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS

A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS

Isn’t it strange?

When people have something, they are looking for something else, when they got what they want, and lose what they already have, then, they want to take back whatever they have thrown before and the more, with the actual realization and regret that it’s actually what they want after all.

We only realize the importance of something, even someone, once we lose them, once it’s no longer there.

We don’t get to value the importance of anything when it’s still there.

Oh well, maybe from the thought and the confidence that you wouldn’t lose them anyway. But sorry, that’s what you thought and you’re wrong, unfortunately.

Plus the sad fact, that when someone has taken over of what we’ve lost, by then we will do whatever it takes to get it back. –> but truthfully speaking, life isn’t like that. You cannot have everything in the palm of your hands, especially if the shortcomings started from your side. You cannot easily get back whatever you have actually taken for granted anytime you want to.

This is what you call “It’s your loss, not theirs.”

I once heard from someone who says (Non-verbatim) “I will never swallow back whatever I already spit out, I’m not a dog.”

And another one from someone  (Non-Verbatim)“I’ve given my best during our time, if there will be regrets, definitely not from my side- and I’m glad it happened. I won’t have to waste any much longer spending my life living with that kind of person. I’ve completely moved on from her and will never turn back – ”

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A roller coaster of emotions. 

Some people crave for something that isn’t there, something that is missing, neglecting some of the things they actually have without knowing that most of the times, what you have is actually what the other people are longing for to get. Ironic?

LIFE IS  JUST A MATTER OF CONTENTMENT.

The lesson in here; 

A genuine contentment.

And GRATEFULNESS  of everything you have, big or small things, right now.

And everything will be alright. 

When you’re officially moved on!

When you’re officially moved on!

Okay well, here it goes. During the past days, I ’m currently occupied with the current situation of someone I know about breaking up.

Being there myself a long time ago, I would say that I do have a little fair share coming from my own experience and a little too much based on the experience of some people within my circle of what to do and what would happen if so on and so forth.

The process of moving on from a bad relationship is really hard at the beginning. This is where you have to start from scratch, the most difficult part, trying to collect yourself. Trying to regain back the confidence plus the resentment, and all the ill feelings you were harboring from being the one who was left behind.

We put a lot of ourselves into the relationships, that is why the process of moving on from an ex can feel like taking an eternity.

Figuring out that you’re truly and completely over your ex could be tricky but just like any ended relationship, the stage of getting over the loss won’t last forever.

And here, I’ve compiled few signs that you are completely over them:

1. DONE REFLECTION

The huge part of the healing process is mostly reflection and reminiscing of the past.  You’re done thinking about what went wrong,  what could have happened with all the if’s. If you’ve come up with the answer as to why the relationship didn’t work out, then you might be totally over them.

2. GETTING BACK IS NEVER AN OPTION

You’ve reached the stage after a long time of re-evaluating, re-calculating, going backs to your situation and you realized that you are not compatible in so many ways and you are better off without each other.

3. THEY ARE NO LONGER THE TOPIC OF CONVERSATION

If you keep on talking to your friends about the failed relationship, your past memories, the places you’ve been to, the food you usually eat, your favorite spots and the likes,  chances are, you are still caught in the past and not completely over yet. But if they are no longer the subject of your conversation, then again, you might be totally over them.

4. HAVING A CLEAR MIND AND INNER PEACE.

You no longer dwell in misery. You no longer wait for their call. You no longer hoped to cross their path again by chance just so to rekindle the relationship. Thinking about them doesn’t give you pain anymore. No more defense mechanisms. No more enumerating all their shortcomings and wrong doings in order for you to justify the breakup just to lessen the pain they caused you and moved on forcibly. You have a bright, sunny clear day!

5. YOU’RE BACK TO YOUR OLD SELF AGAIN!

When you’ve come to your senses and back to your old self again, doing the things that usually interest you, hanging out with old friends again, even hanging out with common friends of your ex without being consumed by their thoughts, and you could say with all confidence that you are back on track, having a clear set of priorities and goals, ready to mingle, ready to move forward,  then finally you moved on!

6. YOU DONT STALK THEM ON SOCIAL MEDIA ANYMORE.

You no longer stalk them on social media trying to find out some clues whether they are dating again,  their whereabouts,  if they are happy, you no longer care about what they are doing and what they are up to. You honestly don’t care anymore. All the more, you sincerely wished them luck and happiness just like you wish yourself the same thing.

7. YOU STOPPED KEEPING ALL MEMORABILIA.

And yes, you’ve thrown away or donated all their clothes, burned all their stuff, memorabilia, gifts, letters, deleted all your pictures together and everything that reminds them with a cheerful heart. No regrets. No going back.

8. HATE IS NOT THE OPPOSITE OF LOVE, INDIFFERENCE IS.

Lastly, you never think or say or wish any more ill feelings and bad thoughts about them. You’ve totally got over it. It honestly feels like they never existed. No hard feelings. You may occasionally think of the bad things they did, but not affected anymore. No pain. You felt indifference. Disgusted to be exact. Waste of time. Or rather, no feelings at all. Bland and emotionless. Just like that. No other emotions but just a plain disgust.

If you genuinely feel all of the above, well then, Congratulations, you totally moved on!

NEW LIFE. NEW BEGINNINGS. A BETTER AND UPGRADED YOU.